11 October, 2010

Why I hated San Francisco

Long time no blogs.. Just wanted to save some of my memories in the form of blogs.. I also making use of this opportunity to test a philosophy my manager told.. to keep on with the things we like we have to cross two hurdles/breaks.. One Starting it and the other one is continuing it..

I have crossed first one long back.. was held with continuing break long time.. If i continue blogging hereafter.. his philosophy holds good.. otherwise I have cross some more continuing breaks.. :-))

The differences when I last blogged and now blogging..

I am married to an Angel. In this world people call her Afeela Fatima. Ours is not love at first sight story.. but love at first hearings.. Yeah when my mob told about her, I couldn't believe it.. When I first met her in our engagement, I felt it.. She is one beautiful angel born in earth and the only one born for me..

Ours is totally arranged marriage.. I was thinking I am not lucky in love.. but not true till I came closer to my Fabi alias Afee.. I tried to impress some ammais.. God kept them away from me for this angel.. There is a saying "God shuts one door, he opens other".. My case he closed small doors and opened door to heaven.. Why am I so excited with my marriage life.. I don't know but this is good.. Good to have companion to share life's UPs and DOWNs..

Your life partner makes you feel good about yourself.. You got one to share yourself totally.. you got to have something that you have in your heart not shared with anyone except yourself.. You don't have to carry any such stuffs.. Once the partners are in love, you can breakdown all your secrets.. Life like an open book has its own advantages.. I still have some to share with my fabi.. Its that we are just 1 year old in love.. its takes some time to get matured in love..

Love that grows in your heart makes you more strong.. I got this much strength to face my loneliness here in San Francisco which all are feeling like one of the best cities to live..

Came to US on July 4th with lots and lots of dreams.. Hoping that my fabi will join me shortly.. Her visa personal appearance was scheduled on July 8th.. I expected her arrival by July 17th to Newyork.. BIG TWIST was she didn't get her visa approved, it was delayed in the name of "Administrative Processing".. What crap is that?? when the VISA OFFICER is not comfortable on providing visa, he opts for further enquiry on your application through other US office/process.. I am not sure of why her visa was delayed.. but the fact is it was delayed for 65 days.. Bcoz I traveled to INDIA on sept first week and my project is scrapped I could not bring her to US immediately even after her VISA approval..

Why did I traveled to INDIA.. I promised Fabi that i will be with her for Ramzan.. as a gentle men I wanted to keep my words.. Bcoz we started our life just 5 months back and I don't want to risk her trust on me.. I risked 2K to travel to INDIA to be with my Angel..

I was wondering why my parents and brother and friends were not at all coming into my mind.. ;-)) Answer I don't know.. I used to be in touch with all my friends regularly.. I have only limited number of friends and they are the best.. My parents, why they got the second priority?? Why my brother got the second priority?? How come Fabi got the top priority in such a short time.. May be bcoz rest of my life is with her, I gave this priority?? I don't think so.. May be bcoz she occupied my whole heart?? May be she loves me more than anyone else?? May be others just left me to her all?? Whatever it is, she got the top priority.. I wish I value my family, my bro and my friends the most.. Bcoz, they make the life variety and joyful..

Spent time with Fabi for Ramzan.. Time to return to US.. She got her VISA, still I am not able to bring her.. :-(( traveled back to US on Sept 12th.. Again lonely, but I am happy for making my Fabi happy and my family happy..

Not much work, so more free time.. more thoughts and more confusions.. Got offers from Allianz project in California and Genre project in Connecticut itself.. I was happy to opt Genre project, bcoz I have Kaleel mapla in that proj.. Same state so not a big difference as such.. Allianz proj sounded good, I am happy when I heard abt the task and the role.. but Genre is best for the married person is what made me choose Genre on first.. BIG TWIST.. Allianz manager called Genre manager and they agreed to make me available for Allianz in California.. Ha ha ha.. All my plans/dreams on settling on CT is gone.. :-(

Okie all set with the assignment travel date confirmed on Oct 6th.. Bcoz of the new system in the process, had some hick-ups on my travel plan.. till date it is there.. :-( might impact my oct payroll if extends after oct 11th.. Having heavy tasks in place to fix them..

October 7th started to Cali.. Traveled in South West Airlines.. Bags fly free.. ;-) company spent $425 on my tickets.. I hated being a Manager.. on saving cost these people are spoiling others life.. What the matter with 1K dollar.. First time I hated Krishna for not making this happed bcoz of money.. I am frustrated bcoz of the cost savings.. People won't talk about performance, rather talking about cost savings is really JUNK..

My new manager giving me the same story Krishna told.. what is this?? I decided to fight to get my wife travel approved by next week.. I am not that hard type, but I have to be to get my fabi here in San Francisco to like it than hating it..

Time is the best gift for us.. this loneliness kills it for nothing.. I hate San Francisco, purely bcoz of loneliness..